My previous 2 posts were about letting myself and my parents down in matters to do with my career, or rather the lack of it, to speak of. Specifically, being stuck in doing what I don't really like (editing), rather than taking the risk and pursue something I really do like (producing). So hello there, don't jump to conclusions if you're uncertain of my subject matter.
Just thought I should spell things out lest people point accusational fingers at me just 'cos I decide to blog in a less outright manner. After all, this is all for my own eyes and an outlet for my inner thoughts, it doesn't matter if you misinterpret what I write about...but I decided to clarify just cos I'm too tired of this vicious cycle.
Seriously hate people accusing me. For the umpteenth time now.
If you know me well enough, you'd know what I'm referring to from the way I phrase my incidents/thoughts. If you doubt my intentions, then sorry, I guess you just don't know me that well after all.
Goodbye all, xq will be away without internet access from 22-27th Jan to Hainan Island. I guess this is a good break to get my mind off so many things, and probably probe on some prevailing issues and source an answer/course of action when I get back.
Hate people accusing me of something I never do, really. It's almost like an insult to accuse me. Something I cannot stand, amidst my strong tolerance and patience.
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Sunday, January 22, 2012
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
*..2011 Resolutions..*
I just realized I haven't had an entry for any 2011 New Year Resolutions. And it's almost March already. A year of changes once again, and I already know what some of these changes would be.
1. This year, I'll be nice to just the people who truly deserve my patience and love, and to people who sincerely appreciate me for who I am.
2. This year, I will work hard towards the new beginning I've been looking forward to all these years, and prove my self-worth to those who've ever looked down on me.
3. This year, I'd work towards developing better interpersonal skills and PR, public speaking etc.
That's 3 resolutions for a start, be back for more. Ideally 10.
1. This year, I'll be nice to just the people who truly deserve my patience and love, and to people who sincerely appreciate me for who I am.
2. This year, I will work hard towards the new beginning I've been looking forward to all these years, and prove my self-worth to those who've ever looked down on me.
3. This year, I'd work towards developing better interpersonal skills and PR, public speaking etc.
That's 3 resolutions for a start, be back for more. Ideally 10.
Monday, January 04, 2010
*..17 Days of Laughter and Tears..*
Tomorrow marks the start of summer term aka SCHOOL BEGINS. Oh misery. It's school from Monday-Thursdays till the end of January. Just one module, but sounds like something I'd hate. Pitching, selling yourself, first impressions. I rather write a thousand essays, seriously.
So a round-up of the past 17 days of holidays (18th December 2009 - 3rd January 2010). I guess it was fruitful in some ways, accomplished alot, experienced far more, including things that we've least expected. There were more sorrows than fun, but we should always wipe off the tears and move on to happier things.
Memory's been really lousy, so here's what I can roughly remember of the holidays.
Watched films with slave on my com/dvd.
(1) Once (2007). Cecilia recommended this and the soundtracks were nicee. Simple story that touches the heart.
(2) Harold & Kumar: Go To White Castle (2004). Needless to say, HILARIOUS. hahaha! shall re-watch the Part 2 with slave soon!
(3) Handsome Suit. Been wanting to watch this in the longest time. Calvin told me looong ago that it's really funny, and sure it was!
(4) Spiderman 3 (On channel 5 last night). When i see spiderman, i think of GINA. HAHA!
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During my exams, Slave's house was undergoing a major revamp and repainting. He swapped rooms with his family members and now has the master bed room. So when xq's exams ended, repainting was done and just in time for packing =) I LOVE PACKING ROOMS. Provided it's not my own room. haha!!! new room so nice now, feels like a chalet everytime im in the room!
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I Finally visited grandma after 5 weeks of absence. =) I tried to have lunch/dinner with mum at her office whenever I could! Even went shopping with her on several days. Simple stuff like these that I cannot do on school days.
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Met mole on 22nd December 2009 as well =) At PS! Jay chou was gonna be there for a promotional event, so the place was packed to the brim. We sat outside for chats over macdonalds icecream instead. HAHA!
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Christmas 2009 was especially refreshing. Had an impromptu road trip with my family to KL & Genting. Departed 23rd December 4am and reached SG 26th December 7am. Our 3rd christmas abroad, last time had it at batam and malacca. Been years since our last trip (in secondary school), so it felt nice =) Also my first time visiting these places, and my first visit to the casino! haha! loved the weather at Genting! More about this next time, some vague pictures for now.
My favourite shot of the trip =) Looked kinda like beijing. HAHA.
Bro drove most of the time, but gave up towards the end and dad took over.
HAHA my dad and mum have the funniest poses. =)
saw this dumb looking snowman, hilarious. At our service apartment's lobby.
Birdie went for the trip with us too =) And kena bullied by mama and papa foo.
This tree near genting, was really christmassy. There were several bird nests perched on the branches as well.
Awww. =)
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Came back to SG on 26th December 2009, and had post-christmas gift exchange! =)
Hand-made personalized drawstring pouch from slave. =)
Heh heh, isn't this cuteeee? Guess whose idea! Slave showed me his baby pictures after we finished packing his room 2 weeks back. AWWW SUPER CUTE, but I was cuter leh. =p So that was another thing accomplished during the holidays--Finally got to see slave's childhood pictures.
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Released my bro's 2 turtles, i mean terrapins. They've been in my toilet since 2002. 7 years! mum's been wanting to release them, but don't know where. Turns out that Slave has also been wanting to release them since the first time he saw them in my toilet. HAHA. So on 27th December 2009, we did just that! Went to Punggol Park's huge pond.
1st and last photo of them. Sad to say, they're forgotten pets at the corner of my toilet. Only mum feeds them diligently everyday. The big male one is always bullying (and stepping on) the small female one. They were of the same size when someone gave my brother 9 years ago.
Slave saying goodbye to them.
Their new home, so niceee. We saw many other terrapins after that! They have friends there! we'll visit you again terrapins, swim away and live well =)
just had to take a photo with the backdrop. Hahaha drive past it a zillion times but never went there before.
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Had PL Christmas Gathering (refer to previous entry) on 27th December 2009 @ Shimin's house too. =)
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We also followed our hearts and satiated our food cravings!
(1) First was IKEA wings on 26th December 2009, and HOT DOGS!
Check out that greedy face. He ate 3 hot dogs!
How xq's zi pai pictures usually turn out.
Picture perfect =)
(2) On 30th December 2009, we finally settled for our much-craved SALMON DON. Salmon don @ Sushi Tei rocks socks! Cheap and yummiest salmon don ever existed in any jap restaurant. No kidding! Mole would second that.
Tried the floss sushi too. YUMMY.
look at the biantai. HAHA!
wahhh I LOVE FISH ROE!!!!
(3) Finally, settled our craving for MOSBURGER as well. On 1st Jan 2010! Breaded Clams and prawns. And ebi burger =)
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Then there's NYE =) xq did something she's been wanting to do for ages, but hadn't had to time/opportunity to. I shopped alone from 10am to 1pm in town! Hunting for mum's Mondo shoes and plain window shopping. I love shopping alone. Hmm and visited Borders for some reads too =) Wonder when I can afford time for such indulgence again.
NYE was a Simple countdown after a crazy few days of car problems. But simplicity always works. We had seafood dinner @ Changi Village with slaves 2 bros and their gfs.
Finally collected our Threadless parcel from carolyn! Slave bought 5, whilst I bought 1. And they say girls shop more! *cough*
haha our last photo of 2009! BIANTAI behind me.
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We changed ham ham's nesting on 1st Jan 2010! New start for a new year. Heh heh. Had a fun time video-ing her too, she does the dumbest and funniest things.
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New year, new start. I even changed PIGGIE'S clothes on New Year's Day =)
Her christmas couple outfit.
Her new outfit actually comprises of old outfits mixed together, since there isnt any nice new clothes out in the stores yet.
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Oh and yesterday we went to find a substitute for Bahbu aka slave's car. Found it =) Went Kaki Bukit area once again.
Bian tai approaching his unsuspecting bro.
They are equally bian tai! hahaha!
Bahbu takes a first and last photo with Xiao Huang, together with their masters.
Shall blog the other pictures other day cos feeling really sleepy now.
We'll miss you Bahbu, thanks for the last 3 months. =) Nonetheless, as the saying goes, “旧的不去，新的不来”. As the new year begins with a new vehicle, that's another new beginning as well.
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That's about all I can recall of the holidays. I guess it was pretty fulfilling and memorable =) SIGH TERRIBLEEEEE the next holidays issssssss...END OF MAY. SO LONGGGGG (*^*&%^&*$%^&#$&%#&%!!!!!!! fancy 5.5 months of continuous school term. Chapman drives us crazy at times like this, maybe that's why we get to graduate in 2 years.
Goodbye holidays, albeit 17 days, I had a really niceeee time soaking in laughter and tears.
So a round-up of the past 17 days of holidays (18th December 2009 - 3rd January 2010). I guess it was fruitful in some ways, accomplished alot, experienced far more, including things that we've least expected. There were more sorrows than fun, but we should always wipe off the tears and move on to happier things.
Memory's been really lousy, so here's what I can roughly remember of the holidays.
Watched films with slave on my com/dvd.
(1) Once (2007). Cecilia recommended this and the soundtracks were nicee. Simple story that touches the heart.
(2) Harold & Kumar: Go To White Castle (2004). Needless to say, HILARIOUS. hahaha! shall re-watch the Part 2 with slave soon!
(3) Handsome Suit. Been wanting to watch this in the longest time. Calvin told me looong ago that it's really funny, and sure it was!
(4) Spiderman 3 (On channel 5 last night). When i see spiderman, i think of GINA. HAHA!
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During my exams, Slave's house was undergoing a major revamp and repainting. He swapped rooms with his family members and now has the master bed room. So when xq's exams ended, repainting was done and just in time for packing =) I LOVE PACKING ROOMS. Provided it's not my own room. haha!!! new room so nice now, feels like a chalet everytime im in the room!
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I Finally visited grandma after 5 weeks of absence. =) I tried to have lunch/dinner with mum at her office whenever I could! Even went shopping with her on several days. Simple stuff like these that I cannot do on school days.
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Met mole on 22nd December 2009 as well =) At PS! Jay chou was gonna be there for a promotional event, so the place was packed to the brim. We sat outside for chats over macdonalds icecream instead. HAHA!
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Christmas 2009 was especially refreshing. Had an impromptu road trip with my family to KL & Genting. Departed 23rd December 4am and reached SG 26th December 7am. Our 3rd christmas abroad, last time had it at batam and malacca. Been years since our last trip (in secondary school), so it felt nice =) Also my first time visiting these places, and my first visit to the casino! haha! loved the weather at Genting! More about this next time, some vague pictures for now.
My favourite shot of the trip =) Looked kinda like beijing. HAHA.
Bro drove most of the time, but gave up towards the end and dad took over.
HAHA my dad and mum have the funniest poses. =)
saw this dumb looking snowman, hilarious. At our service apartment's lobby.
Birdie went for the trip with us too =) And kena bullied by mama and papa foo.
This tree near genting, was really christmassy. There were several bird nests perched on the branches as well.
Awww. =)
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Came back to SG on 26th December 2009, and had post-christmas gift exchange! =)
Hand-made personalized drawstring pouch from slave. =)
Heh heh, isn't this cuteeee? Guess whose idea! Slave showed me his baby pictures after we finished packing his room 2 weeks back. AWWW SUPER CUTE, but I was cuter leh. =p So that was another thing accomplished during the holidays--Finally got to see slave's childhood pictures.
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Released my bro's 2 turtles, i mean terrapins. They've been in my toilet since 2002. 7 years! mum's been wanting to release them, but don't know where. Turns out that Slave has also been wanting to release them since the first time he saw them in my toilet. HAHA. So on 27th December 2009, we did just that! Went to Punggol Park's huge pond.
1st and last photo of them. Sad to say, they're forgotten pets at the corner of my toilet. Only mum feeds them diligently everyday. The big male one is always bullying (and stepping on) the small female one. They were of the same size when someone gave my brother 9 years ago.
Slave saying goodbye to them.
Their new home, so niceee. We saw many other terrapins after that! They have friends there! we'll visit you again terrapins, swim away and live well =)
just had to take a photo with the backdrop. Hahaha drive past it a zillion times but never went there before.
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Had PL Christmas Gathering (refer to previous entry) on 27th December 2009 @ Shimin's house too. =)
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We also followed our hearts and satiated our food cravings!
(1) First was IKEA wings on 26th December 2009, and HOT DOGS!
Check out that greedy face. He ate 3 hot dogs!
How xq's zi pai pictures usually turn out.
Picture perfect =)
(2) On 30th December 2009, we finally settled for our much-craved SALMON DON. Salmon don @ Sushi Tei rocks socks! Cheap and yummiest salmon don ever existed in any jap restaurant. No kidding! Mole would second that.
Tried the floss sushi too. YUMMY.
look at the biantai. HAHA!
wahhh I LOVE FISH ROE!!!!
(3) Finally, settled our craving for MOSBURGER as well. On 1st Jan 2010! Breaded Clams and prawns. And ebi burger =)
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Then there's NYE =) xq did something she's been wanting to do for ages, but hadn't had to time/opportunity to. I shopped alone from 10am to 1pm in town! Hunting for mum's Mondo shoes and plain window shopping. I love shopping alone. Hmm and visited Borders for some reads too =) Wonder when I can afford time for such indulgence again.
NYE was a Simple countdown after a crazy few days of car problems. But simplicity always works. We had seafood dinner @ Changi Village with slaves 2 bros and their gfs.
Finally collected our Threadless parcel from carolyn! Slave bought 5, whilst I bought 1. And they say girls shop more! *cough*
haha our last photo of 2009! BIANTAI behind me.
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We changed ham ham's nesting on 1st Jan 2010! New start for a new year. Heh heh. Had a fun time video-ing her too, she does the dumbest and funniest things.
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New year, new start. I even changed PIGGIE'S clothes on New Year's Day =)
Her christmas couple outfit.
Her new outfit actually comprises of old outfits mixed together, since there isnt any nice new clothes out in the stores yet.
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Oh and yesterday we went to find a substitute for Bahbu aka slave's car. Found it =) Went Kaki Bukit area once again.
Bian tai approaching his unsuspecting bro.
They are equally bian tai! hahaha!
Bahbu takes a first and last photo with Xiao Huang, together with their masters.
Shall blog the other pictures other day cos feeling really sleepy now.
We'll miss you Bahbu, thanks for the last 3 months. =) Nonetheless, as the saying goes, “旧的不去，新的不来”. As the new year begins with a new vehicle, that's another new beginning as well.
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That's about all I can recall of the holidays. I guess it was pretty fulfilling and memorable =) SIGH TERRIBLEEEEE the next holidays issssssss...END OF MAY. SO LONGGGGG (*^*&%^&*$%^&#$&%#&%!!!!!!! fancy 5.5 months of continuous school term. Chapman drives us crazy at times like this, maybe that's why we get to graduate in 2 years.
Goodbye holidays, albeit 17 days, I had a really niceeee time soaking in laughter and tears.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
*..New Year Resolutions and their odds..*
Happy New Year dear all, though it wasn't exactly happpyyyyy for me, ups and downs. It's 2010, yes a time for new year resolutions, however cliche they may sound. xq took a trip down memory lane and dug up old posts to find out the success rate of my past 2 years' resolutions and how they sounded. Seems like as the years go by, less resolutions get fulfilled.
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2008 Resolutions (8 outta 15)
(1) Master guitar
(2) take some vocal cum pop keyboard composing class
(3)IBP (Industrial Based Proj)
(4) Find out what I really want to do (specifically) for a career.
(5) Know which uni and course to go in 2009
(6) Attachment at different production houses and nicee opportunities
(7) compose soundtrack for IBP & many other songs
(8) Settle thoughts/issues with regards to a certain area of my life
(9) Go Beijing Trip with sch!! Olympics 08!
(10) erm, become a freelance writer of some sort.
(11) BUY DSLR!! canon eos/nikon, dunno la. Kinda? bought semi-pro
(12) Juggle sch well with leisure.
(13) Have some kinda performance? I miss the stage.
(14) A year of discovery
(15) A better year than 2007
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2009 Resolutions (4 outta 12)
(1) To find out what I want out of life & what I should pursue in the various elements of my life.
(2) "Store-Bought Love", to never stop feeling for it.
(3) To be a good friend, daughter, granddaughter, sister, student and worker.
(4) Earn more $$$$$ to clear debts from fyp.
(5) Master guitar.
(6) Re-learn jap.
(7) Learn cooking from mum.
(8) Self-improvement.
(9) Go for some song-composing courses.
(10) Make the right university choice.
(11) Miracles, good health and bliss for my loved ones, and their loved ones.
(12) Be happy everyday and learn to let go of unhappy things easily.
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So much for historical background of xq's resolutions. Haha! Now for the real thing. Though slave said resolutions should be thought of and remembered (and not written lest they not be fulfilled), it's tradition for xq to write them down somewhere. Perhaps, resolutions are somewhat good indicators to review our year at the end of each year.
haha since a huge proportion might be unfulfilled, thought I should come up with a greater variety. Hmm I'm sure I could come up with more, but these are the chosen ones. Those in asterisks are COMPULSORY!
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xq's 2010 Resolutions
*(1) Master guitar (yes failed the last 2 years), this time with slave!
*(2) Do my best @ Chapman Uni
*(3) Write scripts with slave
*(4) Earn more money
*(5) Get a part-time/long-term teaching assignment
*(6) Juggle/Balance all relationships well (family, slave, friends, worker)
(7) Find a job I could settle in upon graduation in 2011
(8) Do some wedding videos
(9) Re-learn Jap
*(10) Compose some nice songs
(11) Regain guzheng skills
(12) Exercise regularly
*(13) Treasure my loved ones via actions and thoughts, not just words
*(14) Minus procrastination & stubbornness
*(15) Master FCP (Editing Program)
*(16) Master Photoshop CS
*(17) Watch as many films as can be
*(18) Do regular volunteer/community work of some sort
*(19) Buy macbook pro/imac, iPhone, DSLR
*(20) Travel to more countries with loved ones
*(21) 2010, more fulfilling than 2009
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Hmmm 21 should be more than enough. WOOHOO lucky 21!
2010, new start, newer beginning. =) It's nice to start a new year on a fresh note, creating stories to fill a blank page of life's chapter.
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2008 Resolutions (8 outta 15)
(1) Master guitar
(2) take some vocal cum pop keyboard composing class
(4) Find out what I really want to do (specifically) for a career.
(5) Know which uni and course to go in 2009
(8) Settle thoughts/issues with regards to a certain area of my life
(10) erm, become a freelance writer of some sort.
(13) Have some kinda performance? I miss the stage.
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2009 Resolutions (4 outta 12)
(1) To find out what I want out of life & what I should pursue in the various elements of my life.
(2) "Store-Bought Love", to never stop feeling for it.
(4) Earn more $$$$$ to clear debts from fyp.
(5) Master guitar.
(6) Re-learn jap.
(7) Learn cooking from mum.
(8) Self-improvement.
(9) Go for some song-composing courses.
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So much for historical background of xq's resolutions. Haha! Now for the real thing. Though slave said resolutions should be thought of and remembered (and not written lest they not be fulfilled), it's tradition for xq to write them down somewhere. Perhaps, resolutions are somewhat good indicators to review our year at the end of each year.
haha since a huge proportion might be unfulfilled, thought I should come up with a greater variety. Hmm I'm sure I could come up with more, but these are the chosen ones. Those in asterisks are COMPULSORY!
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xq's 2010 Resolutions
*(1) Master guitar (yes failed the last 2 years), this time with slave!
*(2) Do my best @ Chapman Uni
*(3) Write scripts with slave
*(4) Earn more money
*(5) Get a part-time/long-term teaching assignment
*(6) Juggle/Balance all relationships well (family, slave, friends, worker)
(7) Find a job I could settle in upon graduation in 2011
(8) Do some wedding videos
(9) Re-learn Jap
*(10) Compose some nice songs
(11) Regain guzheng skills
(12) Exercise regularly
*(13) Treasure my loved ones via actions and thoughts, not just words
*(14) Minus procrastination & stubbornness
*(15) Master FCP (Editing Program)
*(16) Master Photoshop CS
*(17) Watch as many films as can be
*(18) Do regular volunteer/community work of some sort
*(19) Buy macbook pro/imac, iPhone, DSLR
*(20) Travel to more countries with loved ones
*(21) 2010, more fulfilling than 2009
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Hmmm 21 should be more than enough. WOOHOO lucky 21!
2010, new start, newer beginning. =) It's nice to start a new year on a fresh note, creating stories to fill a blank page of life's chapter.
Monday, October 26, 2009
*..Stepped back in retrospection..*
Sought solace the entire day in the previous song I've posted. Sad tune it may have, but it's a really optimistic song if you analyze the lyrics and content.
Ironically, was a song I heard on Channel V last night on TV when I was feeling just about as terrible. Took the title down cos thought it might come in handy some time.
Life's really like a movie huh! or rather, movies are great depictions of life. All in 24 hours, I experienced an entire character arc. Of turning points, realizations, changes, climax, resolution. =)
At least everything feels right once more. I guess this is it, you just know it's right. And because it's right, you go all out to protect it from getting destroyed in dire times. You come back feeling more cherished, and cherishing more.
宽容，谅解。
打开心窗你会看到悲伤融化
Sometimes when things don't work in one perspective, it doesn't hurt to look at it from another angle you've never tried before.
It's about forgiving, maybe not forgetting.
It's about acceptance.
About embracing each other's flaws and undesirable traits.
We can't replay past events, but we can mould a better tomorrow =)
Goodbye, BLUE-est monday in 2009. Here's a picture of Blue blue (the blue dog) to ward monday blues away for good.
Now to get life back in order after holing myself up for a entire day till before dinner time. What a day.
Ironically, was a song I heard on Channel V last night on TV when I was feeling just about as terrible. Took the title down cos thought it might come in handy some time.
Life's really like a movie huh! or rather, movies are great depictions of life. All in 24 hours, I experienced an entire character arc. Of turning points, realizations, changes, climax, resolution. =)
At least everything feels right once more. I guess this is it, you just know it's right. And because it's right, you go all out to protect it from getting destroyed in dire times. You come back feeling more cherished, and cherishing more.
宽容，谅解。
打开心窗你会看到悲伤融化
Sometimes when things don't work in one perspective, it doesn't hurt to look at it from another angle you've never tried before.
It's about forgiving, maybe not forgetting.
It's about acceptance.
About embracing each other's flaws and undesirable traits.
We can't replay past events, but we can mould a better tomorrow =)
Goodbye, BLUE-est monday in 2009. Here's a picture of Blue blue (the blue dog) to ward monday blues away for good.
Now to get life back in order after holing myself up for a entire day till before dinner time. What a day.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
*..Goodbyeee 22nd!..*
Jumped out of bed today when I saw the date this morning. Usually I'd jump when I see the time instead.
14th October + 1 = 15th. HAHAHA 14th is my secondary sch's birthday. Aka PL's founders' day.
Just struck me that it's the last day of my 22nd year, I wish I could be 22 foreverrr. It's such a nice number, and a not bad age to be in. Young, yet not too young. Old, yet not that old. Okay this doesn't make sense.
Anyhows the 22nd year was a roller coaster ride. The year where most no. of changes took place in life.
- IBP aka FYP shoot and preparation etc.
- Chalet shoot with Chandler and gang
- Slave =)
- Making The Cut (our debut tv appearance & my debut work broadcasted)
- Proper work begins (Oak 3 days, editing jobs, Boku shoot, events jobs)
- Graduation from Film, Sound & Video (FSV)
- A shiok 2 months of slacking after Oak 3 job
- Dexian's shoot
- Chapman aka undergraduate life begins
All major changes, but very fun ones. Never had so many (long) shoots in a year before. All back to back in the span of 9 months. Sobs, suddenly no more shoots to go. =( 22nd year, a year of rekindled friendships, strengthened old ones and let go of those not worth holding on to.
22nd year, is what I call, the turning point of my life =) It's everything I've been waiting to happen the past few years, happening in a span of one year. Really hope the 23rd year's gonna be nicer and more fulfilling yet =) Make everyday count, xq!
I love new beginnings! Okay start with xq being early or on time for school today! HAHAHA!!!!! byebye off to prepare!
14th October + 1 = 15th. HAHAHA 14th is my secondary sch's birthday. Aka PL's founders' day.
Just struck me that it's the last day of my 22nd year, I wish I could be 22 foreverrr. It's such a nice number, and a not bad age to be in. Young, yet not too young. Old, yet not that old. Okay this doesn't make sense.
Anyhows the 22nd year was a roller coaster ride. The year where most no. of changes took place in life.
- IBP aka FYP shoot and preparation etc.
- Chalet shoot with Chandler and gang
- Slave =)
- Making The Cut (our debut tv appearance & my debut work broadcasted)
- Proper work begins (Oak 3 days, editing jobs, Boku shoot, events jobs)
- Graduation from Film, Sound & Video (FSV)
- A shiok 2 months of slacking after Oak 3 job
- Dexian's shoot
- Chapman aka undergraduate life begins
All major changes, but very fun ones. Never had so many (long) shoots in a year before. All back to back in the span of 9 months. Sobs, suddenly no more shoots to go. =( 22nd year, a year of rekindled friendships, strengthened old ones and let go of those not worth holding on to.
22nd year, is what I call, the turning point of my life =) It's everything I've been waiting to happen the past few years, happening in a span of one year. Really hope the 23rd year's gonna be nicer and more fulfilling yet =) Make everyday count, xq!
I love new beginnings! Okay start with xq being early or on time for school today! HAHAHA!!!!! byebye off to prepare!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
*..When letting go gives more grip on life..*
Told myself the only way to feel better and more positive was to lighten up and let loose. Even if it's just for one day, or half.
I slept early.
Placed the annoying 10 page script aside cos I couldn't pen anything decent with a clouded mind. I slept in today, missed the morning class. Feeling bad, but sometimes we just need a break to get back to routine.
I guess that's my way of buying time. A very lousy way indeed, which cannot be used multiple times.
Think it's working. Today feels like a better day already =) So begins the start of another revised journey. Inevitable to re-adjust our routines, habits and schedules from time to time to fit circumstantial changes.
It's not in the material needs or want, it's how the heart feels within. And when hearts beat as one, it is in one accord that things get fulfilled wholeheartedly. It's a different kind of satisfaction.
Life is not just about "I", it's about all your loved ones around you. It is larger than "I".
I slept early.
Placed the annoying 10 page script aside cos I couldn't pen anything decent with a clouded mind. I slept in today, missed the morning class. Feeling bad, but sometimes we just need a break to get back to routine.
I guess that's my way of buying time. A very lousy way indeed, which cannot be used multiple times.
Think it's working. Today feels like a better day already =) So begins the start of another revised journey. Inevitable to re-adjust our routines, habits and schedules from time to time to fit circumstantial changes.
It's not in the material needs or want, it's how the heart feels within. And when hearts beat as one, it is in one accord that things get fulfilled wholeheartedly. It's a different kind of satisfaction.
Life is not just about "I", it's about all your loved ones around you. It is larger than "I".
Saturday, July 11, 2009
*..One of a kind..*
There are friends who are only close when they physically meet.
There are friends who only feel for each other superficially.
There are friends who are out of sight, hence out of mind.
There are also friends who think they understand, but they actually don't.
But I've found a special friend this lifetime.
The one and only I know who truly understands what I've been feeling and am feeling at crucial turning points in life. Especially since 2005 till now. And the feeling is as mutual as it is exclusive. =)
From not scoring excellence in our A levels (2004);
To spending one year finding the right path to go (2005);
To enrolling for a diploma course (2006);
To completing our polytechnic education (2009);
And now, entering universities the alternative way (2009).
Oh and we were in the same class from Primary 1-3 Kindness! Secondary school Guzheng Tuan for 4 years! Were you in Zheng 2 too? And Sec 3-4A! We got close during that time cos of perverts (hmm wonder who, mole?) and Miss Wong Gim Leng. HAHA....
I guess in my circle of friends, there's only you who's physically walking these steps together with me, despite us being at different institutions all the way.
In order to understand how one really feels, you'll have to tread in those same shoes. It feels like, you're the right foot, to my left foot. You may not know it, but it's partly because of you that I've found the strength to trudge on all these years.
I constantly remind myself that I'm not alone. We have each others' endless support and encouragement on msn and smses. And that never fails to spur me on =)
SO SKELETON!! IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING WHO THIS FRIEND IS.....
IT'S YOU LA MAI SIAO SIAO! haha!!
Okay sorry! Must put nicer picture right? CHIO BU!
Just want to lend you all my courage as you settle yourself into a brand new environment at Adelaide, a brand new start. Something we've been working towards--getting our degrees. Albeit 4 years later than our peers who've mostly graduated last year and this week, but we're finally here! =) And finding what we really like doing in the process.
Sorry that I can't send you off or haven't had the time to meet you since Shimin's b'day celebration. Secretly hoping that you will come back during your mid-year break. HAHA...if not then..*sob* see you next year SKINNY!!! by then u might not be skinny anymore, but fatty..Okay not funny...
And yes, as promised, WE WILL SKYPE ALOT K! when u're bored. Mai gei gei, australia where will bored. So many friends with you somemore. Take more photos and upload on facebook or something, I'm sure PL gang is eagerly looking forward to knowing how you're getting along there.
*sigh* would really want to celebrate your 23rd birthday with you..cos same day as my idol (Stefanie Sun) la..And guess what? Today, your departure date coincides with her concert date! HAHA stop stalking her can!?! *sob* if only I could go her concert, loved the 1st one on 14th January 2006. My brother's birthday. haha!
Bon voyage Skeleton! May this one year be a memorable part of the final year of your education. After that somebody must join peiwen at Tan Tock Seng Hospital. HAHAHAHA, nvm better than shimin at KKH. Occupational therapist..don't play play!!
Happy lor! Graduate one year earlier than me, leave me behind. *sob* HAHA..kidding! But with all sincerity, jiayou skeleton! Last lap already, we've come this far! =)
An everybody-is-happy photo on plin's birthday 25h April 2009 (Saturday) with PL Gang.
One of my favourite candid picture. Look at shimin laughing her usual hysteric laughter!
On 13th June 2008 (Friday) @ Pastamania in our awkward positions.
Hmm don't know why, but I'm actually feeling abit empty after typing all that. Probably the thought of not having you around in Singapore for 1 year. =( BYEBYE PERVERT!!
Take good care of yourself there! =)
There are friends who only feel for each other superficially.
There are friends who are out of sight, hence out of mind.
There are also friends who think they understand, but they actually don't.
But I've found a special friend this lifetime.
The one and only I know who truly understands what I've been feeling and am feeling at crucial turning points in life. Especially since 2005 till now. And the feeling is as mutual as it is exclusive. =)
From not scoring excellence in our A levels (2004);
To spending one year finding the right path to go (2005);
To enrolling for a diploma course (2006);
To completing our polytechnic education (2009);
And now, entering universities the alternative way (2009).
Oh and we were in the same class from Primary 1-3 Kindness! Secondary school Guzheng Tuan for 4 years! Were you in Zheng 2 too? And Sec 3-4A! We got close during that time cos of perverts (hmm wonder who, mole?) and Miss Wong Gim Leng. HAHA....
I guess in my circle of friends, there's only you who's physically walking these steps together with me, despite us being at different institutions all the way.
In order to understand how one really feels, you'll have to tread in those same shoes. It feels like, you're the right foot, to my left foot. You may not know it, but it's partly because of you that I've found the strength to trudge on all these years.
I constantly remind myself that I'm not alone. We have each others' endless support and encouragement on msn and smses. And that never fails to spur me on =)
SO SKELETON!! IN CASE YOU WERE WONDERING WHO THIS FRIEND IS.....
IT'S YOU LA MAI SIAO SIAO! haha!!
Okay sorry! Must put nicer picture right? CHIO BU!
Just want to lend you all my courage as you settle yourself into a brand new environment at Adelaide, a brand new start. Something we've been working towards--getting our degrees. Albeit 4 years later than our peers who've mostly graduated last year and this week, but we're finally here! =) And finding what we really like doing in the process.
Sorry that I can't send you off or haven't had the time to meet you since Shimin's b'day celebration. Secretly hoping that you will come back during your mid-year break. HAHA...if not then..*sob* see you next year SKINNY!!! by then u might not be skinny anymore, but fatty..Okay not funny...
And yes, as promised, WE WILL SKYPE ALOT K! when u're bored. Mai gei gei, australia where will bored. So many friends with you somemore. Take more photos and upload on facebook or something, I'm sure PL gang is eagerly looking forward to knowing how you're getting along there.
*sigh* would really want to celebrate your 23rd birthday with you..cos same day as my idol (Stefanie Sun) la..And guess what? Today, your departure date coincides with her concert date! HAHA stop stalking her can!?! *sob* if only I could go her concert, loved the 1st one on 14th January 2006. My brother's birthday. haha!
Bon voyage Skeleton! May this one year be a memorable part of the final year of your education. After that somebody must join peiwen at Tan Tock Seng Hospital. HAHAHAHA, nvm better than shimin at KKH. Occupational therapist..don't play play!!
Happy lor! Graduate one year earlier than me, leave me behind. *sob* HAHA..kidding! But with all sincerity, jiayou skeleton! Last lap already, we've come this far! =)
An everybody-is-happy photo on plin's birthday 25h April 2009 (Saturday) with PL Gang.
One of my favourite candid picture. Look at shimin laughing her usual hysteric laughter!
On 13th June 2008 (Friday) @ Pastamania in our awkward positions.
Hmm don't know why, but I'm actually feeling abit empty after typing all that. Probably the thought of not having you around in Singapore for 1 year. =( BYEBYE PERVERT!!
Take good care of yourself there! =)
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
*..What do you fear?..*
What is the one thing you fear most?
Some people dread failures.
Some fear death.
There are so many kinds of fears based on combination & permutations.
The one thing xq fears most?
Partings and saying goodbyes.
As the time draws nearer, my heart feels heavier.
The closer to heart the person is, the deeper the sinking feeling.
Just the sheer thought of it irks me out.
2 years isn't a long time.
2 years is the amount of time I'll take to graduate from Chapman.
Yet 2 years apart from you, would seem like eternity.
And the tears well up each time I think of this.
I didn't want to wake up to today, hence woke up at 230pm in the end.
It was my form of escapism, I didn't want to wake up and be one day closer to Thursday, 12am.
Brother is flying off tomorrow night to Philippines. He ORD-ed yesterday and is moving on to the next stage of his life, embarking on a new career. Though Philippines isn't very far off, I won't be able to see you so much. =(
I love the airport, but it's times like this that makes me hate the airport alot. Never thought I'll spend a few years apart from you. Can't bear the thought of being away from my family for prolonged periods of time, which is why I didn't want to go overseas for university. I'll be a depressed student for sure.
I will miss you many many, brother! You are the one person that makes me love and hate you so much, all concurrently and within minutes. There is no one else who would be so nice and so mean to me, in this world.
Some people dread failures.
Some fear death.
There are so many kinds of fears based on combination & permutations.
The one thing xq fears most?
Partings and saying goodbyes.
As the time draws nearer, my heart feels heavier.
The closer to heart the person is, the deeper the sinking feeling.
Just the sheer thought of it irks me out.
2 years isn't a long time.
2 years is the amount of time I'll take to graduate from Chapman.
Yet 2 years apart from you, would seem like eternity.
And the tears well up each time I think of this.
I didn't want to wake up to today, hence woke up at 230pm in the end.
It was my form of escapism, I didn't want to wake up and be one day closer to Thursday, 12am.
Brother is flying off tomorrow night to Philippines. He ORD-ed yesterday and is moving on to the next stage of his life, embarking on a new career. Though Philippines isn't very far off, I won't be able to see you so much. =(
I love the airport, but it's times like this that makes me hate the airport alot. Never thought I'll spend a few years apart from you. Can't bear the thought of being away from my family for prolonged periods of time, which is why I didn't want to go overseas for university. I'll be a depressed student for sure.
I will miss you many many, brother! You are the one person that makes me love and hate you so much, all concurrently and within minutes. There is no one else who would be so nice and so mean to me, in this world.
Monday, June 22, 2009
*..A new beginning..*
Helloo world!
This song has been stuck on my repeat list for some weeks, lifts my spirits up each time I hear it. Something soothing about its tune and lyrics. There's so much hope and positivity in it.
Haha here's a video I found on youtube, think someone re-edited it with flashbacks all. MTV style yeah? haha..
High School Musical 2: "Start of Something New"
Livin' in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight
This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now...lookin' in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Who would've ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real
This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see
[CHORUS]
Heh and I came upon the sims version. As emily yeo would say: "COOL BEANS!!" really a good imitation of the original MV. hahaha...but off sync like mad!
This song has been stuck on my repeat list for some weeks, lifts my spirits up each time I hear it. Something soothing about its tune and lyrics. There's so much hope and positivity in it.
Haha here's a video I found on youtube, think someone re-edited it with flashbacks all. MTV style yeah? haha..
High School Musical 2: "Start of Something New"
Livin' in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight
This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now...lookin' in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Who would've ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real
This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see
[CHORUS]
Heh and I came upon the sims version. As emily yeo would say: "COOL BEANS!!" really a good imitation of the original MV. hahaha...but off sync like mad!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
*..Start of something new..*
Helloo world!
Just struck me that this blog has been devoid of photos..and in recent days, entries..Haha too many things happening, don't know where to begin! And been busy the past weeks too..
free-er now, but still tonnes of things on to-do list...shall get started tmr...
from 2nd-8th June, there was dx's short film shoot aka "Voiceless Screaming"...here's some sneak preview of the photos he's uploaded on facebook...more with mary ling aka marilyn...and even more in my camera, but xq's lazy to upload them to my computer.. I have like 2.5 months of photos stuck in my SD cards due to plain laziness...
Day 5, 8th June @ makan place aka food court at ngee ann poly.
wahaha jiayun took this for me..damn act!!! act DOP! (Director of Photography)
xq and her darling chin who's the real dop...in my favourite pose with her....chin....HAHA! think i have a whole huge collection of such pictures over the 3 years..
as usual, camera crew never fails to cameo in every shoot...
xq and lead actress Laura Kee. She's auditioned for alot of my projects but 1st time we actually casted her. =) Really like her infectious laughter! and she happens to be my bro's junior back in Raffles JC..cool revelation...
heh, xq loves to take pics of her shoes and hands... but this one was initiated by TOUFY, im innocent!
steve, our actor, was posing with the magazine cover..and suggested i tried out the shot too..
Day #3 of shoot @ Punggol Jetty. Cool huh, dinner by the rocks, onlooking the sunset.. =)
heh heh, photo credit mary ling! really nice, cos it's my 1st time there in the day despite moving to punggol in May 2002.
darling chin took this pic, cos she said it's her 1st time sitting in a car driven by me..HAHA!!!
1st time seeing the lallang fields behind sandy beach too..In the night, all's too dark to realize the field's actually just behind me... I wanna go Punggol Jetty for photography trip soon!!
really so in love with the sponsored Canon 5D Mark II...OH MY LORDDDDDDD with L Lens some more... =( Not very expensive la hor..$7000 with lenses only.... can take HD videos too... I WANT TO HAVE A 5D IN MY POSSESSION! the shallow depth that is shallow like mad...and the brilliant colours... the shiok aperture and ISO... 1st time I can take nicely exposed photos in extreme low light..
my dream camera! Hahaha, but sometimes..we all know how to differentiate a FAT HOPE from reality!!!
*bubble bursts*
It's a once in a lifetime thing, that xq get to use such a camera... Albeit a short 1 week, but nonetheless cherished memories of the yummy dslr...*act drama*
Hmmm time to find something new to look forward to. Finding new things to do.. Life's getting abit off focus once again...New jobs, hurry come xq's way! =) Feels good each time I close a chapter of life, and move on in search of something new and unexpected..
and dx's enlisting in a few hrs' time..Good luck! =)
Just struck me that this blog has been devoid of photos..and in recent days, entries..Haha too many things happening, don't know where to begin! And been busy the past weeks too..
free-er now, but still tonnes of things on to-do list...shall get started tmr...
from 2nd-8th June, there was dx's short film shoot aka "Voiceless Screaming"...here's some sneak preview of the photos he's uploaded on facebook...more with mary ling aka marilyn...and even more in my camera, but xq's lazy to upload them to my computer.. I have like 2.5 months of photos stuck in my SD cards due to plain laziness...
Day 5, 8th June @ makan place aka food court at ngee ann poly.
wahaha jiayun took this for me..damn act!!! act DOP! (Director of Photography)
xq and her darling chin who's the real dop...in my favourite pose with her....chin....HAHA! think i have a whole huge collection of such pictures over the 3 years..
as usual, camera crew never fails to cameo in every shoot...
xq and lead actress Laura Kee. She's auditioned for alot of my projects but 1st time we actually casted her. =) Really like her infectious laughter! and she happens to be my bro's junior back in Raffles JC..cool revelation...
heh, xq loves to take pics of her shoes and hands... but this one was initiated by TOUFY, im innocent!
steve, our actor, was posing with the magazine cover..and suggested i tried out the shot too..
Day #3 of shoot @ Punggol Jetty. Cool huh, dinner by the rocks, onlooking the sunset.. =)
heh heh, photo credit mary ling! really nice, cos it's my 1st time there in the day despite moving to punggol in May 2002.
darling chin took this pic, cos she said it's her 1st time sitting in a car driven by me..HAHA!!!
1st time seeing the lallang fields behind sandy beach too..In the night, all's too dark to realize the field's actually just behind me... I wanna go Punggol Jetty for photography trip soon!!
really so in love with the sponsored Canon 5D Mark II...OH MY LORDDDDDDD with L Lens some more... =( Not very expensive la hor..$7000 with lenses only.... can take HD videos too... I WANT TO HAVE A 5D IN MY POSSESSION! the shallow depth that is shallow like mad...and the brilliant colours... the shiok aperture and ISO... 1st time I can take nicely exposed photos in extreme low light..
my dream camera! Hahaha, but sometimes..we all know how to differentiate a FAT HOPE from reality!!!
*bubble bursts*
It's a once in a lifetime thing, that xq get to use such a camera... Albeit a short 1 week, but nonetheless cherished memories of the yummy dslr...*act drama*
Hmmm time to find something new to look forward to. Finding new things to do.. Life's getting abit off focus once again...New jobs, hurry come xq's way! =) Feels good each time I close a chapter of life, and move on in search of something new and unexpected..
and dx's enlisting in a few hrs' time..Good luck! =)